I lost my amazing Dad last November I was 7 months pregnant, my Dad died in Trinity Hospice with myself, my Mum and my Partner by his side. He passed away the day before my Mums Birthday, he deteriated quickly over a week and suddenly was unable to walk he drifted off into a sleep which lasted for 6 hours before he died. Dad had a 4D scan of his first grandchild by his bedside, I had our baby in January of this year. We found out about Dad having Cancer of the unknown primary when I was 5 months Pregnant, beforehand he was diagnosed with irritable bowel syndrome 5 times and told it was stress he started to feel unwell in March. We sold our buisness together a Children's Nursery in July which we had run together for 9 and a half years (I am so happy we did this as I spent so much time with him) Whilst I was pregnant and when my baby was only weeks old, I have held back my emotions and feelings regarding the loss of my Dad. However now it feels like it's hit me like a ton of bricks, I feel so upset and angry regarding the professionals who cared for my Dad and the fact it was Cancer of the unknown primary and we still don't know where it originated from to this day. Dad was my everything, I am currently supporting my Mum who has never been on her own and my Dad protected, sheltered and did evreything for her, she is currently moving to live near us. I have support from my partner who encourages me to cry and let my emotions out, my beautiful baby girl is a lovely distraction she has lit up our life and we all love her so. Really miss my Dad's voice, his advice and his love and laughter, having a good cry helps me to cope and release the built up anger and sadness I just wish I could of helped him, I tried but was unable too.