I am new to the forum.  I was rediagnosed with Metastatic Lobular Cancer last April so it's coming up to my first anniversary.  It has been a difficult year and I still struggle mostly with the emotional side.  I have Fibromyalgia so I have symptoms from that as well as chemo.  I am taking chemo about once every four weeks and am on my third formula.  The last one gave me terrible neuropathy and I was almost at the point of being unable to walk and falling all the time.  I have mets to the ribs and spine and an adhesion to the ovary.  The bone mets have shrunk a bit as have the ovary and I am currently in a disease stable mode.

As I mentioned I just am having so much trouble learning to live day to day.  My emotions go round and round, from crying for no reason to depression to anxiety to sadness to hopeless to being happy.  I never know what I will get and it's just so tiring trying to deal with the emotional side of things. 

I am doing this journey alone as well, don't have spouse or children, my sister is in a home and I have been taking care of my mum for 15 years as she is 93 and has Parkinson's.  I have a brother who lives 3 hours away and can only help out now and again.  I have 1 friend who has chosen to keep her distance so I struggle as well with being alone and coping with all this by myself. I just want to find some solid emotional ground and get on with my life while I am still here without so much pain,