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Ever Feel like the world is too big and scary?

Offline EllieeM95 over 9 years ago

I'm 20 been in remission 8 months from AML type of leukaemia,

I'd be lying if I told you that I'm not petrified of my own shadow right now. What ifs???! Buts!??!!?? I'm sick of worrying panicking

Being so anxious makes me so warn out, being tired battled by inabilities to sleep plus panicing and nightmares

Also Google thinks I have PTSD???

I just want to feel safe and reassured.

Not this low, it's unbearable. So Hi I'm Ellie, I'm more scared now than I was when I was ill...

Offline SusanK over 9 years ago

Your poor thing, you've been through a lot for someone so young. God bless.x
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Offline themadhatter over 9 years ago

Hey
19, been in remission 3 years (ALL). I know exactly how you feel. I will say though that it does get better. I go through phases now where I hardly think about what happened to me and then it hits me all over again and Im worried, nervous, sad at the world. Just now has been pretty bad because I had a scare relapse (thankgod it was nothing) in January and my friend relapsed recently who also had ALL so Ive felt like Im back on a knife edge and in that world of uncertainty. I dont know if this helps but I just wanted you to know I relate 100%. I also struggle with depression and anxiety which I think is a combination result of what happened to me and just my genes so you are not alone... I would recommed getting CBT or councelling if you havent
Big hugs
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