I found out in July that my mum has advanced lung cancer (spread to her brain) I'm an only child and I am going out of my mind at the moment as I just feel I have no one I can talk to that understands what I'm going through! My mum is the strongest person I know and having to watch her deteriorate is the hardest think I have ever had to do in my life! I am being strong for her when inside all I wanna do is scream!!!! She had treatment initially and has been having top up chemo to keep the cancer controllable, today she was told that her kidney function is poor and that she can't have her next top up! What makes it all worst is I'm a nurse and understand things a lot more so I'm literally going out of my mind! My mum is my best friend and is way too young for this to be happening (51)  just wanted some wise words or encouragement/ coping mechanisms from people who are in the same boat xxx