Hi Kathleen like you my husband has been diagnosed with terminal cancer of the oesophagus. We got the diagnosis on 6 January 2016 and for the last 10 weeks cancer has taken over our lives. I too wish I could turn the clock back to the 5th January when life was normal instead of the living nightmare it has become. My husbands life expectancy is not good but I refuse to give up...I believe he will be the person who proves the experts wrong.....he starts his second cycle of chemotherapy on Monday and it is taking its toll on him.....I am always here if you need to chat. ...you will find plenty of people on this forum who understand what you are going through ....big hugs x