oesophageal cancer

got diagnosed last January after an endoscopy examination had my operation in April and well on the way to recovery , haven't needed any chemo so far as the surgeon says it was caught in a very early stage . Know i should be happy but mentally it has relly knocked me for six , when i have called in to work one person keeps saying kow's the holiday going . Starting work part time again next week after over ten month's off .  

  • Hi there, it sounds like you was very lucky it was caught so early although not lucky to have cancer in the first place. Does this person at your work know why you are off? Not the kind of holiday anyone would want to go on. I think if the person knew I'd end up being abrupt to them or saying it was hardly a hold at/picnic. I hope you get on well going back part time.

  • As you were kind enough to reply thought i would let you kmow how work went , every one was brilliant only letting me do easy jobs , the bosses wife told all the others to look after me and in the afternoon my boss came in and told me i had done enough and to go home . The idiot was a bit of a pain but ignored him most of the time , doing two days this week and looking forward to it just have to remember to keep snacking so i can keep my energy levels up  , more updates later

  • Hello, so glad you got on well at work. Every workplace has an idiot, or one of them! (as I like to call them) I'd imagine you can get pretty tired quite quickly. I'm pleased they are looking after you. How are you doing in yourself now mentally? I hope you're dealing with things, life really does test us at times and it's hard to get things in perspective. Good luck to you. 

  • Things are getting easier at work as the more i do the better i feel , have started to go swimming again and my arms are feeling stronger already , also on tuesday's going for a couple of laps round my local park with a group of ladies who have all had or are going through variuos stages of breast cancer but we all talk about every thing going on in our lives , i look forward to these walks as it does help me feel better although i still get my fed up days where even now i feel like shouting out in anger or curling up in the chair . It also helps having sites like this where i can put my feelings down and there is always people out there who understand , how are you getting on , are you manageing okay

  • I'm so glad things are working out for you. The walks sound a great idea, you will all be a great support to each other. I'm good (ish). I don't have cancer, I just lost my dad suddenly to cancer. The worst experience of my life to be honest. It's been 4 months now. It's hard without him not around, I've managed to get a job a couple of days a week so that gets me away from home with something else to think about. I'm surrounded by his memories at home as he lived next door to me. Everyone else goes to work and it used to be just me and dad here, now it's just me and the kids. This site has made me realise I'm not alone in my feelings, there are others better and worse off than me. It's good to talk to people who are in the circle and know first hand what it's like. It's just so sad that so many have to be in these circles be it yours or mine. One day there will be a cure. My dad smoked, if he hadn't life may well of been different, he did stop smoking around 1.5 years before but the damage was already done. Very sad but true, I spent my life pestering him to stop...what do you do?

  • Hi,

    Sorry I missed your original post - I'm but glad you discovered your OC at an early stage.

    Every work place has an idiot, the good thing is that most people in the workplace know who the idiot is. I've been told that if you don't know who the idiot is, it's probably you! 

    Seriously, both your body and your mind have been through a lot and its good that you're able to have a phased return to work. Try not to rush things, get your fitness back, don't take work too seriously and enjoy the rest of your life :-)

    Cheers
    Dave