Hey S_A,

I lost my mother in April 2015 to lung cancer and I'm also in my 20s. My brother is 24 and we only had my mother growing up, so for us it was like losing both parents in one. To begin with my mum was diagnosed while I was in the UK and I had to contact my brother who was in NZ to let him know, he flew up asap and we spent her last moments with her when she was in the hospice. Seeing ones parent die is nothing you will ever be able to forget however to be by her side was the most special moment in my life. 

My mum never told me she only had 6 months to live until the last few months so for me that was devasting but she didn't want to worry me. We had some very special moments together before she passed away. I think what my point is, is that you need to focus on the good moments you've had with your dad recently so you can focus on these times and remind yourself that they actually happened. I'm sorry if I don't make much sense.

I have spent so much time crying and feeling angry that she was taken from me so young (56). You will never feel the same again and no matter what people say, you will never get over the pain of losing a parent. You have to focus on the good times you were able to have together in his short life and remember that whatever you do in life, you are your fathers daughter and you will make him proud I'm sure :) You're doing so exceptionally well by talking about it and I know you'll brave the hard times ahead of you xx

P.S: Get as angry and upset as you like, you're allowed to be as emotional as you want! If you want my number let me know. Speaking to people who've been through what you're going throuhg may help!