Hi All

I've just come across this forum and thought it may be useful to talk to others about my experiences.

I lost my dear Dad on 17 December 2015 to Liver Cancer.  He was in hospital for weeks before being treated for sepsis and billarubin.  But then we found out that the billarubin could not clear and a week later he sadly passed away.

I miss him like mad and feel lost without him.  I went back to work for the first time since it happened today and I managed to hold it together for the whole day and i was really proud of myself.  I haven't broken down in tears since the day/day after it happened, which is odd for me to keep it together.  But I hope I am making him proud.

Im also giving a lot of support to mum too, which helps me, and she seems to benefit from our chats.

It just still hasn't sunk in, it still feels like he's in hospital and he's going to walk through the door at any minute.  But I am finding everyone so kind and supportive.  My mums side board is completely filled with cards.  

Reading some posts on here; its like people have written my story, its uncanny.  Cancer is so cruel.  

Anyway, thought it might help to talk 

xx