Hi, im really struggling with the news that my dad told me on christmas eve that he has colon cancer. I lost my mum to lung carcinoma 11 years ago and to this day i have never been able to deal with it because i didnt understand and she never told me the truth that she was dying.  my dads brother died over a year ago of cancer and his other brother is in remission. He lives far away and due to myself having health issues, i had to sell my car because i cant drive now. I dont know where to turn for emotional support, and i dont want to talk to my husband about it because he lost his dad to cancer. I feel so useless because i want to be there for my dad when he needs support most. My dad keeps laughing and joking that everything is gonna be ok, but im petrified and not sure how to hold it together ?? :(