I was diagnosed a monh ago today with invasive lobular breast cancer, at the end of a pretty *** few years. It was a very strange experience as I didn't find a lump, just noticed 1 boob didn't go back to normal after a period. I somehow 'knew' it would be cancer, so I handled it all really well, the confirmation, the MRI, the derranged bloods, the new medications to try and sort them out in 1 week before my op, the insertion of a target wire & radiosotope injection and the operation a few days before Christmas. But then I had a major breakdown on Tuesday and it was like I had only just realised I had cancer. Has anyone else experienced something like this? 

I am also looking into other treatment options, both conventional and complementary and I would love to hear from anyone who has researched these things or is using non-standard treatments, either alone or alongside conventional medicine.