Hi there, all the very best for your appointmment tomorrow, will be thinking of you and do let us know how you get on. Take care  Sue x

Think you so much, never used a forum in my life before and finding it a bit scary Xx

Hi again, this is a great place to chat and get advice, or even to rant and rave if you feel like it. Everyone here has been through the same fear and uncertainly of dealing with a diagnosis so can understand how you feel. In your shoes I would have been delighted to have had my appointment brought forward as it's the not knowing that's the b****r! I also had to wait on MRI results before geting a confirmed treatment plan and then it was more waiting for the next thing to happen. But try to concentrate on tomorrow for now, it's a good idea to take someone with you if you can so they can be a second pair of ears for you. Also, if you haven't done so already, jot down some questions beforehand as it's surprising how much you don't take in at the time. My consultant actually wrote the answers down for me as he could see I wasn't totally with it! Take care and all the best. Sue x

Hi, just wanted to wish you all the best for today.  Please come and talk to us again, day or night, we are always here for you. x

Good morning Lissylou.

I was on this journey myself earlier this year and have to agree with all that Susu has said and good advice she has given you. My husband is on the journey now and we are off to hospital today for a scan and biopsy so keeping our fingers and everything else crossed. I was given a cancellation and had surgery two days after seeing the Consultant and now realised it was the best thing that ever happened, despite being in a state of shock at the time.  In my experience, the sooner you get a diagnosis and treatment plan the better.  I'll be thinking of you today and so hope you have a good consultation and please let us know how you get on. Tina. X

Hi Lissylou and Tina, just wondering how you are both doing? Take care Sue xx

Good evening susu. Thank you for your response and I am feeling quite overwhelmed and emotionally drained at the moment going on this journey again this year with my husband.  I have felt I have coped well with my cancer, treatment and recovery, however, feel this latest development has knocked me for six!  I seem to be the one everyone relies on and I am now feeling I need a crutch! My husband now has an MRI scan on 23rd December to assist with diagnosis so feeling here we go into 2016 with a feeling of Dejavu!  He won't see Consultant until 8th Janauary so we will just need to try and remain positive over the festive period. Does lightning strike twice is a question I keep asking myself and what have we done to deserve this but know many on here feel the same and have indeed had it affect them or their family more than once.  I do know that life is not fair and why should it not be us as we are in no way special but nevertheless keep asking the question.  I was going to post a rant this morning to get if off my chest but decided not to do it so thanks Susu for giving me this opportunity.   I hope you are doing well and in a good place at the moment. Tina.x

Hi Tina, I don't blame you at all for wanting a good rant, how cruel to have only just got through all your treatment and then find your hubby starting down the test route as well. No one deserves such a hard time but this double whammy must so difficult for you, especially as others rely on you to be the strong, capable one. We all try to protect those closest to us as much as we can but in doing so it can add to the pressure we feel. That in itself can be a real burden so please do come back to let off steam as you need and want to. The lovely thing about all the good folk here is that everyone really does understand the emotional effects of all this just as much as the physical stuff.  I have found it a real comfort to connect with others on this forum. Lots of great advice, empathy and even a kind kick up the butt when needed (!) along with some wonderful humour so I hope you come to find the same to help you cope too. Take care Sue x

Hello Tina, Susu and Pauline

Thank you so much for your kind words. I am so confused at the moment that I have not been able to log in again under "lissylou", I can't remember the details so I have had to reregister under cancun1257. I have my head in a slightly better place at the moment. I was told at the appointment with my consultant that I have two tumours, one is 1 cm but the other is 5.5cm and I had an implant in my tummy last week and have started tablets to put me into menapause. I am now booked in for a mastectomy on the 11th of January.

Tina,  I hope you and hubby are okay. I completely understand the emotionally drained. I had to go home to Wales yesterday for my uncles funeral and I have cried all day today. Keep telling myself to get a grip. xx