Hi Cindy,

Thankyou so much for sharing your story about your wonderful husband. I feel your pain so much !!! Like you, my Kevin and I did everything together ...joined at the hip, as they say. I seem to be able to get through the week days, but the weekends are terrible. My youngest son is 25 and lives in Newcastle and comes through to see me, but as you say. they have there own lives to live and can't be constantly keeping me company. My other son is 28 and lives in Bristol with his wonderful girlfriend. It's a long journey to see them from the North east of the country, but we talk/text often. They will all be staying over the holiday period and I cant't wait to give them all a cuddle...something else I miss!!! Like you Cindy, I'm glad I found this site, though it's a club I wish I hadn't had to join.

Take care my love. xx

Hi Pierce,

Thankyou so much for your kind words.I'm so sorry to hear that your father is so poorly. I know how hard it was for my two sons to watch their father get progressivly weaker, though in my husbands case, it was swift at the end. He died at home, with myself and boys by his side and that helped me tremendously. I know that my boys worry about me being alone in the house and as much as I hate it, i'm surviving! It's a worrying time for you both and as you say, she's been through alot, but somehow we get through it! No time is the right time, but this time of year just seems to make everything even harder to cope with...my thoughts are with you.

Take care XXX

Cindy,  my beautiful husband passed away on 29th October he was 67 I am 53 I just want the pain to stop it just seems to be getting harder nothing seems to have a point anymore right now I can't bear to think of the future without him, sorry just wanted  to rant xxxxxxxx

Deben I know what you mean. My world revolved around my husband. I try to focus on the now and not look at tomorrow because it is too overwhelming. I am so thankful that we left nothing unsaid. I am trying to figure out how to be around other people as one and not as a couple and that even includes my family. I have one week of work and then I will be on 2 weeks holidays. That seems pretty scary right now. I bought a dog to keep me company and when I am not working she is my   world . My husband was my best friend. I guess I am in the lost stage. It is sad to realize that there are so many in our situation. Please take care and thank you .cindy

When my Dad died my Mum was like a ship at sea without a compass - she has now found her way but it has been very difficult. My thoughts are with you all during this really sad and painful time. X 

Hi Deben, I am so sorry to hear about your beautiful husband passing away and I know what you mean about the pain getting harder! I have bad days when all I want to do is cry for my precious Kev and worry about what lies ahead for me. I still seem to think it's not real and life will return to normal. I think of all the things he's missing, when really I know I should be remembering all the good times we had...I've been reading Cindy's post and I'm now wondering if I might buy a dog in the New Year...something maybe to focus on and care for. I too seem to feel abit like a lost soul...there seems to be so, so many of us out there.

Take care my love and rant all you want...I cry for myself as well as Kevin. xxx

Thanks Cindy,  I totally understand the couple thing the thought of socialising without sam is so sad he was so much fun.  I went into work for the first time today it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but coming home and having no-one to ask how my day had been is awful. Just try to keep busy o  your two week break.  Thanks again take care xxxx

Thank you Peach I am so sorry for your loss  I hope in time it will get easier for us all.  Take care xxxxxx