I am new to this... Just finished chemo but bang in the middle of this my aunt died. My aunt brought me up mostly after my own mum died from cancer when I was twelve... People have said I have been so strong and coped every step of the way ( to be honest I don't think I have exhaled since I was diagnosed on 9 march ... Mastectomy ...  16 lots of chemo ....waiting on gene testing !) Seems like I am talking about someone else when I have typed that ... I still don't think it has sunk in despite all I have been through ....