Hi. This is my first time on this site and I wonder if anyone else feels like me. Is this normal?....... I got my diagnosis last year. The cancer had already started spreading to my lymph nodes so my treatment has included lymph node surgery, double mastectomy, reconstruction, chemo and radiotherapy. I'm now on tamoxifen which makes me feel awful, hot flushes day and night and badly aching joints and bones. I feel constantly tired beyond belief, I can't believe how much my life has changed. I went from being a person with 3 jobs who was always on the go and always running around after other people to being a pretty useless person now with no job and not even enough energy to get through a day at home let alone doing anything for anyone else. I've recently had to have 3 more lots of surgery and each time seems to leave me with even less energy than before. All my friends seem to expect me to be back to my old self and are constantly telling me how pleased I must be that it's all behind me now. But it doesn't feel that way. It still feels like it's very present with me. How do I start feeling a bit more positive? I really have lost all my motivation.