Hi Joanne and welcome to the forum.  I have also been on the cancer journey but I am not familiar with all the terminology so not quite sure about your diagnosis, treatment etc.  However, glad you are now on maintenance and hope all goes well for you in the future.  It is difficult when you have to give up employment and I finished working 4 years ago and I must say it is not so much the work I miss as my colleagues.   I am lucky enough to keep up with some of them and now do the "ladies who lunch" and get their support.   One other has also had cancer, although different types, and we can cross refer and support each other.  I think it is a case of finding alternative ways of occupying your time and if well enough some volunteering also makes you feel you are doing something worthwhile again.  Tina.