I just want someone's who been in my position before an how'd  you solve it ....... Okay so my boyfriend been having this cancer for 3 weeks and I had barely know this when he told me he been diagnosed with cancer.....

I was devastated cause I fell in love with him , you may need to know that he lives in german and I live in the USA but we get to see each other, idk . I just only got one question for God . 

"Why let me fall in love with someone who has cancer." 

I've told my mom about this and she responded with 

"God made you fall in love with him for a reason, so that if he's gone forever he'll be happy an know that he got someone that loves him, not cause you feel sorry just cause you fell in love for him." 

Yes I cried but I prayed to God that he wouldn't take him away from me cause we both planned our life together an how he's gonna move down to USA just to be with me. 

I even ask why can't it be me with cancer , I mean he has an amazing singing voice and now he can't go back to the studio cause of cancer . I want him to be able to live life to the fullest an experience the things he never did in life . Haha I really like him a lot , I even stay up to talk to him once I'm off work I wait till it's 7 in the morning over there an just talk to him till I pass out .... call that true love? ... 

He doesn't want to do chemo therapy cause he thinks it *** but I keep trying to convince him that it'll make you feel better . But still he thinks is unnecessary for him... 

Hurts me inside that I'm suffering with him but he doesn't want me to worry about him cause supposedly "he got this" ... I'm tired of seeing him hurt ..... please someone help me or talk to me , I feel like I'm losing him baby steps by baby steps . I don't know how I'll be if I do lose him , he's my first love . ...