I am 41 years old, my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer in august 2011, I was going through a messy divorce at the time and he was a real rock to me.  He lost his fight in January 2012 holding my hand in hospital.  

My divorce was finalised in march 2012, havent seen my children since 2013.

My mum was diagnosed with bowel cancer late 2012, she lost her fight 11th september 2015.  She passed in her sleep holding my hand.  

Thats me, here I am 41 year old man who feels so vunerable right now.