I find it difficult to talk about 'it'.. I can't seem to talk to anyone too deeply just yet. Talk on the surface and it's not really me I'm talking about, Its like gossiping in the office.. I've had lots of support from nurses and offers to chat, but I just can't bring myself to hit it face on. Ever time I speak I burst into tears, each time feels like I've just been diagnosed again and again .. . This is difficult, just trying to type this! But here goes.. I'm 56 and last week had my last radiotherapy session out of fifteen. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in August this year. I have had the cancer successfully removed but now I've been told I'm HER2positive. The whole situation just tumbled me so fast, one minute all I worried about was what to have for dinner and now I'm in another life! Side effects of radiotherapy and tablets are so aggressive which isnt helping, bringing me to an all time low.. But I hide it well, but my partner knows different and quite often gets the sticky end. I love him so much, he has been my rock and my shield, but unfortunately I sometimes use him as my battering ram.. I should be ashamed......
