I found out last year whilst i was in my first year of university away from home. They are trying to prolong her life for as long as possible but i can tell shes getting worse. I dont know how long she has left , as although she is recieving treatment and they say its doing its job, im not so sure. Either way we know that it is inevitable that she will die from this and im heartbroken. I feel like im doing my best to cope, im doing everything i should be doing (spending time with my mum, whilst still being a 20 year old) but its getting harder each day. I fear that some how im going to end up loosing my mum and myself in this situation. Im feeling so many things whilst also feeling nothing at alll... I have always coped and been succesful despite any hardship that has come my way (my dad has been ill since i was 13) but  now i feel like the pressure to be all these things (a daughter, a friend, a student, a happy person) is just too much.