hi, just found this forum and not entirely sure how this works. up till now ive been pretty resistant to talking about things or looking for help. i was diagnosed with stage three breast cancer when i was 25- 6 months chemo, 12 months herceptin, mastectomy, reconstruction, radiotherapy, tamoxiphen and 4 other ops later im well and outwardly pretty normal. i managed to cover most of the treatment and work through most of it, started a relationship and generally felt like a badass. now im 'over it' ive had a few false alarms (pain and bumps) and cant seem to get over feeling like i should be bracing myself for the next round. i try not to think about it and dont dwell on the past but for the first time in my life im scared about my future. ive found another lump on my healthy side and am trying to concentrate on the facts-im healthy, false alarms the last 4 times, tamoxiphen is doing what it should and this is probably my body is just reacting from all the wierdness its been through. trouble is i cant tell anyone because i cant worry them or be a source of sadness again but squishing this vague sense of panic is beginning to make me miserable.i dont want to be ungrateful at a time when i should be remembering how lucky i am and i want to help show other younger patients that you can be pleased with surgical results and lead a good life after something like this but im coming a bit short so far. any advice? do others feel like this too? bit lonely, thankyou for any response...
