In my case, I didn't tell anyone until after I had been given a diagnosis. It was very hard to carry on as usual while having various tests etc but I did not want to upset anyone until I had something definate to tell them.
It is perfectly normal to be scared and to let your imagination go completely wild. I thought of all kinds of nasties and trawled the internet almost constantly, which only made things worse as I didn't really know what I was looking for.
You do not say if you have been given a diagnosis or a treatment plan yet but once this happens you can concentrate on that and talk your family through it as you go. You will probably find that getting them involved helps them as well as you.
When my husband was undergoing tests/waiting for results he decided he would rather wait until he had all the facts before 'sharing' as saw little point in worrying others unless it was necessary. As soon as he had diagnosis we called our children (adults) to a meeting to discuss everything. and from that day forward they were fully aware of the journey we were on and told us they would not have wanted it any other way. They were a little annoyed that we had kept the preliminary tests from them but know they understood why. I think we all know our own family pretty well and I am sure if they knew how scared you are they would want to be there for you. Hope you find the forum a good place to share your feelings.Jules54
So far I have told my adult children that I have come to terms with my terminal diagnosis, but this isnt true, I am actually really frightened. I am not sure they could handle my fear and I am not sure I can either. That's why I love this forum - there will always be someone to understand!
So sorry to hear of your diagnosis, no wonder you are so frightened.
We all try to act positively but actually it is absolutely all right, if not downright essential, to kick and scream too.
I find I put on a brave face for those closest to me, and only rant and rave to myself and other people who are not so close. This way I feel I am protecting my family a bit but am still able to vent my feelings.
This is why I also joined this forum. Everyone here knows and understands how you feel and that any reaction you have is normal, whatever it may be. It is very reassuring to know that you are not alone out there and that others on here really do get it.
Take care of yourself and let us know how we can help.
