Part of my post didn't transfer and I didn't check after, silly me...anyway after the first opinion we sought a second opinion, which changed things just a bit, but enough to give us a little ray of hope, it was all that was needed....the new team to a man were inspirational ( still are ) I didn't sail thru chemotherapy and radiotheraphy exactly as its not great, but I saw it as killing the cancer do never feared it...twice I ended up in hospital as it messed with my blood, and the words of the doctor kept ringing in my ears, it's not the cancer at the moment...it's infection that will kill you....it all was finished in July 2013, the first scanxiety appt after was probably the worst to do, but it was okay, and so they have been since, shrinkage and stable...in July this year I'm two years out, at Christmas 2015 I will be celebrating my second ' last ' Christmas...I've been abroad once and am going again soon, my body is not what it was, my breathing isn't perfect, and I'm now taking thyroxin for an under active thyroid and omeprozole for reflux, but nothing else at the moment..there's more options for me should it return, it's incurable and inoperable BUT it may be treatable...I don't know why I wake up every morning and carry on my life as normal, ( although now different ) but I do, it affected the family big time, but as I've dealt with it, so have they, we talk about it all the time, but no one thinks I'm going to die...so as I said ' I'm still here' I feel okay....if I wanted to moan at all, it would be because of my weight, I've put on 33kgs and I hate that...that's the next challenge...I hope my story will help some others...I know none of us are the same, I know things could change in a heartbeat...but I can't live like that...I still want to live, so I do....much love to everyone suffering right now xxxxx Lyn
