I am so sorry to hear your cry for direction Louise. Your children must be struggling to understand and find a new way as well. After five weeks it does hit = things have changed and this is a new part of life. I send you all a big hug at this terrible time. I believe that after the clouds darken and things go black = a tiny flash of light appears and this light - like a new dawn grows into a new way to live. Not forgetting the past - no = but incorporating it. To that I will wish for you, Louise, and I have been of the habit of lighting a little candle in our front window to shine its light as a path for people. I will dedicate it to you all this evening.
Twenty years ago - I had a terrible loss and the pain of = it was so much i had to leave some where. - I often go down a country path to exercise and found this tree which I dedicated to this loss. I was able to leave all the pain by the tree and everytime I go passed - I wave to the tree in re-dedication. The pain stays at the tree and no longer with me.
Keep exercising and eating and change life as little as possible at this time -
