Mums turn....

Hi there, i'm writing this today before i travel to see my mum (she lives in a different county), she told me on friday that she has lung cancer. We don't know how bad it is yet, she's had a ct scan and she's to go to see the doc on tues, so all is not lost yet, however, it is going to be so hard to stay positive because almost 11 years ago we were all in the same position, as my dad also had lung cancer and we had to watch him go, he died 28 days after being diagnosed. When my dad told me about himself, and then we went to visit them, i knew he wasn't going to get better, before he knew himself, (he looked shocking), and now, i am dreading seeing my mum incase i feel the same again, what if i know? how can i keep smiling? she keeps apologising for losing weight and that i'll be shocked. this sounds so selfish i realise as i'm writing this but i can't help it. my sister was 11 when dad died and now she's 22 and has a 4 year old daughter who dotes on her grandma,(as they live right next door), if it is bad news how the hell do we tell her? i have an 18 month old son, he doesn't see his grandma as often and at his age will not likely remember her so it will be easier for me to deal with in regards to him, but what about my dear sister and niece? i realise how negative this reads and i know it is, but having been here before, i can't snap out of it, i just want my mum to be ok. i am quite a private person, and keep my emotions in check, so i won't upset my mum, stepdad or sister, just wanted to share, because i need some other people to talk to because i can't keep it all to myself. My fiancee has been brilliant as he was there the first time round so knows whats going on, so its not like i don't have support, just want to chat thats all. sorry for the negativity.

  • Hi Terribear,

    We love good news on here. Thank you for letting us know.

    Kind regards Brian.

  • Thanks guys, will keep you updated.

    :o) x

  • hey guys, quick update, my mums bronchoscope came back and showed no malignant cells which is good, so she went for a biopsy last friday and they got three good ones she said so now we're waiting for results for that. Hate the waiting, my mum must be going spare! And last week my mum in law asked me to feel a lump on her boob, she went to the docs this morning and says she'll talk to me about it later when i pop in before work, and a friend at work found a lump and she's off for a biopsy in the next week or so. bit of a poor few weeks really, that cancer has a lot to answer for, bloody thing! anyway, hope everyone else is ok or at least keeping spirits up : xx

  • Sounding good for your Mum . Will keep fingers crossed that everyones results are ok. Cancer has a lot to answer for and so many people having to worry at this time  of year when we should be able to enjoy the festivities. Will still be trying hard to push worries away and make the most of my family time. Good luck to all and take care.Jules

  • wellllll.....its beginning to sound like good news for my mum.....they've started testing her for tb now....she had two biopsies on nye, one for tb, one for cancer, hopefully will hear something back beginning of next week, hope it is tb!!!! my mum in law however, has got breast cancer and is going to have a masectomy on the 22nd jan, so it will be good for us all if my mum has tb, because we can all concentrate on supporting my mum in law even more (bro and father in law had a crash day before nye, hardly injured, but still bad luck) and we can all start to get more positive and hopefully 2013 will be better than 2012! i hope everyone else is doing ok xx

  • Hi Terribear

    Firstly all the best to you and all the family for 2013. Keeping everything crossed that the results keep getting better for your Mum. Sounds like theres a lot going on in your life right now with all the family ups and downs!! Hoping you finding a bit of time to yourself - not easy though.  We had a lovely family Christmas (I had 10 for dinner) and made the most of 2 days off work . Hope you dont have to wait too long for test results and wishing your mum in law all the best for her surgery too.  Take care. Best wishes Jules

  • Hi Terribear -  hope everything goes well for your mum and also your mother-in-law.  I know what you mean about a run of bad luck - sometimes it feels it is never ending but hopefully this year will bring better news for you and your family.  There is only so much a family can take.

    My own aunt died last week from cancer.  She had surgery for skin cancer some years back but it returned very aggressively and we then found out her daughter is now being treated for cancer.

    Take care and fingers crossed for both mum and mum-in-law

    Mickied

  • Hi Mickied

    Just read your response to Terribear and see your life is not getting any easier, with the death of your aunt and the diagnosis for her daughter. Life is so unfair sometimes isn,t it.  Hope you're cold/cough has improved. Think the immune system takes a battering when we feel down. Mind you loads of people at my workplace are dropping with usual colds and we have had a couple off sick with the novovirus - really dont want to bring that home!!!  Take care of yourself and family.Best wishes and virtual hugs.Jules

  • Hi Jules - I have been meaning to write to you but only got the chance today.  How has your husband been lately?

    Yes another cold Jules from before Christmas.  I have another appointmwnt with the doctor on Monday and I will scream if they tell me I am over the worst of it like they did before.  That novovirus is a bit scary isn't it.  I feel I have caught every virus that was going last year but never mind me what about you had you a nice Christmas.

    Hopefully 2013 will be a better healthier year for all of us.

    Take care

    Mickied

  • Hi Mickied,

    Think the festive season was the busiest ever but for all the right reasons. Hubby was feeling a bit better, having been forced to cease chemo due to the adverse effect on his body. He is back to eating regular meals though a bit smaller and has even put on half a stone!!  Of course we know his type of cancer cannot be cured but it was really good to have all the family together. Daughter, son in law  and 4yr old grandson came Xmas Eve - Boxing Day as did my sister in law. Son and girlfriend popped in Xmas Eve, spent the day with us on Xmas Day and then visited again Boxing Day with his girlfriends parents for an hour or two. We also had hubbys' brother and wife on Xmas Day.  A good time (if a little tiring) was had by all. Everyone mucked in with preparations and even bought extra dining table. With a 4 year old it was all very exciting that Santa had got him what he wanted ' Santa really listened to what I wanted'. Was this an amazing gift = no a £1 toy blue beetle car which he so wanted!!!!!!!!!!!!  It made my day I can tell you.  New Year was a lot quieter, just the two of us (in recovery I think). Hubby still experiencing a lot of tiredness but think a lot of this is down to the painkillers (though he taking less since his chemo sessions). Am getting used to looking up and seeing him asleep in chair.

    Hope the doctor can sort you out properly this time - maybe a course of multivitimins to help your immune system, you have been through such a wearying time in recent months.  Wishing you and the family an improving and peaceful 2013. Take care.Jules