Hi my mother has the above...diagnosed  18 months ago. Now post stem cell transplant which has failed. She has a ver aggresive form of the disease.

do  I sound selfish ...I feel drained mother lives abroad thank god has had better treatment than UK. Why do I feel so help less?? Employer is a nightmare to get time off and I work for the NHS what a joke treatt me like I'm lying!!! what does my mother need to die to prove that she had Cancer! tryiny to support my sister not easy we live at different ends of he country and she isnt really listening to me.

God I feel so drained and the only solace is red wine ......pathetic I know feel like Im becoming a functioning alcoholic .....sorry for the moan any suggestions...