Hello Jimj , so sorry to hear of your illness and the death of your wife after being married and together for 45 years. I read your post and had seen you had over 100 views but no replies. I think it’s because we do not really know how to try and comfort you. All I can say is what a lucky couple you were to have 45 years together which is a great milestone in this day and age. I pray you will find comfort it remembering your and gain strength to continue to fight your illness . Take care Banker