I had lumpectomy and lymph node removal, all clear but oncotype score high so needed chemotherapy, radiotherapy and now on hormone treatment - anastrozole and ribociclib, had neturophil sepsis on first cycle so ended up in hospital, the ribociclib dose has been reduced and although the side effects some days can be very bad I am starting to learn how to manage them. I am now really struggling with moving on, angry at the cancer for changing my life, although I still have monthly appointments with oncology I feel like my safety blanket has been whipped from underneath me. My family have been very supportive but now chemo has finished seem to think Mum/ Grandma is back to her normal self and I'm screaming inside with all the emotions, I live on my own and not lonely but alone some days, may sound silly but there is a deference.
This all sounds like doom and gloom, but just had my first year mammogram and so relived the letter has just popped through the door that x-rays appear entirely satisfactory, so good day today
normally quite a private person but decided to join the group today
