I had lumpectomy and lymph node removal,   all clear but oncotype score  high so needed chemotherapy, radiotherapy and now on hormone treatment -  anastrozole and ribociclib,  had neturophil sepsis  on first cycle so ended up in hospital,  the  ribociclib  dose has been reduced and although the side effects some days can be  very bad I am starting to learn how to manage them.  I am now  really struggling  with moving on, angry at the cancer for changing my life, although I still have monthly appointments with oncology I feel like my safety blanket has been whipped from underneath me.    My family have been very supportive but now chemo has finished seem to think Mum/ Grandma is back to her normal self  and I'm screaming inside with all the emotions,  I live on my own and not lonely but alone some days,  may sound silly but there is a deference.   

This all sounds like doom and gloom,  but just had my first year mammogram  and so relived the letter has just popped through the door that x-rays appear entirely satisfactory,  so good day today 

normally quite a private person but decided to join the group today