Hi Jolamine

You have definitely been through a lot. It certainly hasn't been easy I admire your spirit. You have done really well through many challenges 

How did I manage to get off the drink?  

My mother took a stroke and now has dementia and is in a home. I went to a new doctor after I had done a couple of things drunk which I hated myself for I was a total mess emotionally. He was very direct and took control. He put me on valuim for a short time about 2 weeks Prescribed me antabuse. Antabuse takes the decision to drink away as you will be violently ill if you drink and sent me to a one to one alcohol councilling charity. That was on the 10 July last year and I haven't drank since.  If I could have drank I would have as I managed my emotions with alcohol. I am still on antabuse and will definitely be on it for now.

It is actually amazing I can say in 12 days time. I have been sober for a year. 

I still have anxiety it's part of me. I have come to terms that my only chance of surviving is to have a prosthetic. Both my sisters support this decision.  Hopefully I get my op date soon.  I am going to focus on trying to relax and eat well.I have made the decision and feel it is the right one. I will update you when I get my date. 

Kind regards and thank you again.

Angie xx