Hi, i am 62yrs old and was diagnosed with prostate cancer in October last year after having a PSA test in the September. My brother in law died of prostate cancer at the age of 58 a few years ago and his wife is an advocate of men over 55 being tested. 

I had no symptoms whatsoever and requested the test after attending the doctors for holiday vaccinations. Within a week I was contacted by the surgery with a PSA of 12.1. This led to a manual digit test where I was told that my prostate felt normal but that i was being placed on the cancer pathway due to the high PSA reading.

Ended up with further tests including MRI which also proved inconclusive and offered the biopsy as the only way to confirm or dismiss any cancer concerns. A further PSA result also come back as 14.4

I had the necessary biopsies carried out (which I hope I dont have to do again anytime soon) which concluded that I did have Prostate Cancer with Gleason scores of 3+3 and 3+4. It was hiding on the underside of the prostate but crucially, was contained within the prostate.

I 'manned' up for my wife's sake as I knew that losing her brother affected her badly. In fact, I was comforting her when I was diagnosed.

I decided after listening to the treatments available to me which were radical prostatectomy or radiotherapy, to go with radiotherapy. My consultant saying that I was a good candidate for SABR Radiotherapy which was a high dose treatment but only requiring 5 fraction treatments on consecutive days. This was completed over the New Year. 

Blood tests in March showed treatment working and PSA of 4.6 still high but greatly reduced and should be near to 0.2 within 18 months. 

I am still dealing with side effects, mainly urgent and frequent visits to loo for a pee! Bit of an ache down there and dozing off a little bit. 

I did try to get back to work after 2 months but frequent loo visits and not being able to concentrate properly caused me to go off work again at end of March. 

Ive worked for the same local government employer for 43 years and have been referred to Occupational Health with a view to me being retired on ill health. To add insult to injury the job I had been working towards for last 2yrs was advertised and filled while I was off sick!

I have since become very emotional over the whole thing and find it difficult to speak about it, ive tried but then find myself getting a bit upset and have to stop. And despite knowing that things are getting better and my consultant being more than happy with my progress, I continue to have these feelings of worry and dread for the future and its just not like me!

The purpose of this post is to ask if anyone else either felt the same way or did feel like that and, if so, what did you do to 'snap' out of it so to speak.

Thank you and sorry ive been a bit long winded!!