Hello everyone

I have a diagnoses of HER2 positive alongside mental health conditions which is proving tricky to manage.  I am due to start chemo end next week but I am having panic attacks because of potential side effects.  My plan is supposed to be EC X3 Docetaxel x4 Phesgo x4/surgery/radiotherapy.  I am also a dancer and currently feeling very lost and worried about stories I am reading online (which I'm trying not to do and hence has brought me here).  I have asked my consultant to consider Paclitaxel instead of Docetaxel which she is currently doing and that would be 12 weekly doses.  I know were all different but could I possibly get some experiences of both drugs.  I am petrified of losing my hair but on Docetaxel seems likely, I am afraid of toenails lifting because of dancing and afraid of foot and hand syndrome, also because of dancing.  With paclitaxel my worry would be the neuropathy.  I have read that mostly it goes away but I am worried because of dancing.  Dancing is my whole life and it helps me stay on top of my mental health illnesses.  I train a lot, do competitions and perform so weighing up all these side effects and the possabilites are tearing me apart and causing my mental health to decline.  I am literally falling apart.  This isn't the first life changing health event for me and has taken 17 years to rebuild my life and be happy once again and now this.  Could I please ask for any experiences on either of these drugs please.  As I say I know were all different, I just need to weigh things up somehow.  Thanks so much for reading and any help would be greatly received.