Hi Von62,

A very warm welcome to the forum.

I am sorry to hear about your recent diagnosis. Do you know what type and stage of breast cancer you have and have you discussed treatment options. The way that you are feeling is perfectly normal. There are still so many unknowns and these can be scary. The more you get to know and understand about your cancer, the better you'll find that you can deal with  this.  I was first diagnosed with breast cancer 16 years ago and had a lumpectomy. Six months later, I was diagnosed with pre-cancer in the other breast and a year after my lumpectomy, I was diagnosed with a second bout in the original breast. This time I had a double mastectomy. 

Like you, I was terrified, as I had already lost my mum to secondary breast cancer after a 12 year battle with primary cancer. She had a terrible experience during that time and I did not look forward to following suit. Fortunately, diagnosis, treatment and after care have all made considerable strides since then and there was just no comparison between what we both  experienced. I am fortunate to still be here 16 years on and I still lead a busy and fulfilling life.

Please keep in touch with us. I am always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx