Hang on in there.  My heart goes out to you.  I know that frightened feeling.  

Thank u for replying I thought I was on my own out there x

Never on your own.  How are you doing today?

I’m feeling a bit better I think sometimes when you can’t sleep things go through your mind too much 

cancer can be a lonely world x

This horrific disease takes over everything.  Its the last thing you think of before sleep...when you can sleep...its the first thing you think of when you waken. 

Mornings are the worse just one thing can set it off 

I think cancer can be a lonely place 

Unless you have it you cant imagine the trauma it causes.  I feel no one understands at all.  

I use to have a lovely busy life but I can’t do what I used to do 

I’m thinking about looking into volunteering but I fall asleep a lot so that won’t be very good 

No one understands it’s harder as it goes on as people around me disappear 

No one understands it’s harder as it goes on as people around me disappear 

I have bladder cancer but I am waiting to have my bladder removed.  I also have other symptoms which make me think I have lymphoma but that hasnt been diagnosed as yet.  I have been waiting for 6 months from the day I first went to GP.  I cry on a daily basis but I do know my mind runs riot with every pain I have I think its spread.  I know bladder removal is a big op and I am 68 years old with not the best set of lungs :-(.   I just have to leave it in the hands of the docs.  

I hope you get the answers you need soon , 

I have a break from treatment at the mo 

but still taking my chemo tablets every day x