A bit about me - I was diagnosed with tonsil cancer last year and hubby has stage 4 small cell lung cancer. We're doing this together but it's so tough

I am 49 mum of a 17 year old a wife I was diagnosed  last year with tonsil cancer had radiotherapy and was told it was gone but I knew it hadn't pushed within a weeks to be seen again to be told nope its grow even more I now had to go and get a ten hour operation have my throat flad done pallet done and a whole load of neck surgery  done and came home to the news my hubby has stage 4 small cell lung cancer never smoked I wanted home to him I got home so him and I are doing this together only his out come is not and won't be good I don't ask my daughter for help she should be doing what any 17 young  lady should be doing so try and do what we can ourself but my recovery is frustrating as expected it will take along time but in-between that having to arrange my hubby's funeral and stuff for wen that day comes I haven't cried because I know if I do I won't stop thank you for reading