Stage 1 breast cancer - just been diagnosed and it's finally hit me. Finding it hard to keep this to myself but don't want to worry my family

Hello I have just been diagnosed with stage 1 breast cancer on my right breast after a routine mammogram. It was a big shock as always thought I was healthy, I walk a lot and on my feet all day in my job. I am not overweight but have put on weight around my waist, usually middle age spread. I went through menopause about 10 years ago and apparently my tumor is estrogen fed which comes from menopause and added weight. 

I am currently having further tests on my left breast as unusual cells came up on a MRI. Since my diagnosis I have been holding it together and carrying on as normal, but today I came home after a walk and was soaked from the rain and just burst into tears. I am finding this hard to keep to myself but don't want to worry my family so dismissing it.

Has anyone else felt this way? I assume this is normal as the shock has finally hit me.

  • Hi Pam, hope you are OK after your pre assessment. Just wanted to wish you the very best for your lumpectomy on Tuesday. When you feel up to it let me know how it went.

    I will be thinking of you 

    Cherry x

  • How kind of you to contact. I was going to ask you how the wedding went? 
    I am starting to get nervous. My pre op was fine and I go radioactive tomorrow! I will let you know what happens on Tuesday Take care. 
    Pam x

  • Hi Pam, the wedding was lovely, I had an amazing time and they looked so happy.

    It's my birthday today and my daughter treated me to go and see The Lion King in London, it was such a surprise and the show was fantastic.

    I understand how you feel about feeling nervous. All the time you can be practical about things going to tests and just carrying with your normal every day life it doesn't feel real.

    You will be fine on Tuesday, take each day as it comes. I assume your family now know and are supporting you?

    Take care and rest after your op, let me know how you get on.

    Cherry x

  • You will never guess what happened today. I got booked in etc etc. First on the list. Seen by my surgeon but then the anaesthetist wasn’t happy about my enlarged thyroid. She spoke to her colleagues and it was decided that it wasn’t safe to continue until they had further information. I need to have a ct scan and endoscopy. I am so upset and frustrated so will need to await another surgery  date and hope the appointments come through soon. 
    Have you had a date yet for your op? X

  • Oh Pam I'm so sorry. I thought they had already investigated your thyroid and decided it was OK?

    That must be so horrible to build yourself up for the op only to have it cancelled like that. I'm sure you will be seen quickly as the cancer path deadlines that have to be met. Please don't worry I'm sure all will be fine and if it isn't then we can support each other. My op is on Tuesday 13th January.

    Take care and keep me posted

    Cherry x