I am newly diagnosed with breast cancer, it's early and treatable so long as my MRI confirms this (lumpectomy, radiation, hormone therapy) and dealing with it the best I can. I have carried on working and living my normal life, I also have a family with two children. 

I have a dark sense of humour and often make jokes about the rubbish situation I'm in, I think to alleviate everyone else around me more than anything else.  

But I am now coming up to 3 weeks since my diagnosis and feel incredibly lonely and feel I am unable to talk about my situation or be vulnerable. Firstly I know I'm "lucky" it should be treatable and after this blip my life will hopefully continue on, but actually I do want a bit of compassion and care and feel like I'm lacking anyone for support. 

My husband asks if I'm ok, I reply no, he then asks "oh why?" And then I kind of pull a face of... Well...  then he goes yeah I know that. Then that's as far as it goes.. We haven't had a single conversation where Ive been able to say I'm scared and struggling a bit. 

I suspect everyone doesn't really know what to say to me, and perhaps bouncing off how Im reacting , but actually I feel more lonely than ever trying to process this whilst continually trying to be upbeat, and I think when I am slightly vulnerable or try to talk about it people don't know how to react and I feel like I become an unemotional droid just spouting matter of fact what has happened and it's going to happen. 

I don't even know what the point of me posting here is, but I expect I can't be the only one that is in the same situation I am in.