Same here :) I still have to clear enough head space to work, so have been using Insta funnies to chase the blues away. It may be exchanging one rabbit hole for another, but at least there are silly laughs along the way! 

I also try to have a good laugh with my family. Mainly about the oddities of my treatment. My daughter is best at this but then she's drama teacher. My granddaughter and I watch Legally Blonde often, I know I know not the best movie ever made but now we laugh before the funny bits. Of course we get low and start planning my funeral but then one of them will start laughing "well if you play jazz I'm not coming", "if you don't play Punk I'm not coming". Finally "if you're dead we can play what we like".

Thank you for your reply. I was beginning to think people found humour tasteless in this situation. A lot of our laughs are around stuff like parking. " Just tell them you have cancer" after overstaying a parking ticket. Also I think every single NHS worker involved with me has been fabulous but the ones I love are the ones who can have a laugh. Who would have thought having a catheter and then having it taken out could leave me and a nurse in hysterics. What of the low times, of course there are plenty, I'm knackered, I feel sick, I want to stop all this endless hospital. But I think of my family, my friends, the foster kids I have had over the years who never seemed to go away and I sort of rally. I'm with your son about social situations, a ready made excuse. No more duty stuff. Never got the free toothpaste but I have enough medication to open a pharmacy. Stay cheerful, well most of the time, and reply if you get time.