Hi I think im at the same stage as you been told bad news but 2 weeks to wait to find out how bad and what can be done , so night time is the worst cant sleep , mind racing,pure terror of whats to come and so bloody angry that i didnt appreciate how good my life was , will peace of mind ever retun 

Absolutely, so many thoughts, felt a bit sad when I woke up this morning because it’s easier being asleep. I suddenly feel really ill, but I suppose that’s psychological. I feel the only person who is in a rush to get this sorted is me, but I’ll have to trust that they know what they are doing. I’ve had lots of friends/people who know ‘victims’ that have very positive stories, I’m sure I’ll be positive soon, but I can’t see any light right now. 
we need to start taking it one day at a time, there’s nothing we can do about the diagnosis and prognosis, so take time to enjoy the small things in life that make us smile.

take care xxx

Cancer thrives on negativity, and I sure feel that a lot, so this reminds me,  let’s be mindful in the smallest of good moments.

lets kick its ***