Hi, I've been diagnosed with thyroid cancer. I'm booked in for surgery this coming Monday. I'm trying to be practical and positive about this. When we got the diagnosis my partner of 6 years was acting like I was going to die. Kept asking if I'd made plans for the children (they are not his) had I made a will... etc. He took a week off work (to look after me, apparently) whilst I carried on working even the afternoon of the diagnosis (I work from home) I felt I was the one supporting him, although there was this underlying feeling it should have been the other way round.
He's barely touched me since. If I try and kiss him or be intimate he'll change the subject, or give me the brush off. I've asked him why and he just says 'I don't know'. It came to a head this evening when the same thing happened, I got upset and cried, and he didn't even hug me or reassure me, or even show he cares. I'm somewhere between really upset and very p'd off. I said why is this affecting you more than me, to which he replied 'it's not just all about you'. I left the room and have been crying / getting angry on the sofa since. No attempt to come and see how I am. I just feel like he's more concerned about how he feels than how I feel.
I can't even go and talk to him because I can hear him snoring now. I feel so alone and uncared for. I just want him to give me a hug, but when I said that earlier he just lay there and didn't say a word.
