Greetings my beautiful PEEP'S This is my very first entry. I have been ambushed by cancer for the third time now . I underwent 2 previous surgeries for the removal of a rare sarcoma called Leiomyosarcoma, which is a soft tissue cancer. I was fortunate to have a brilliant surgeon who removed the cancer from my body. I didn't have chemo as it wasn't offered to me at the time, and in all honesty I truly wasn't ready for it. My surgeon had so much empathy for me and kept tabs on me by introducing me to regular and consistent cancer check ups.
Unfortunately for me, this year 2025, cancer was picked up inside my body once again. My surgeon was woefully moved with compassion. I was now advised to undergo Chemotherapy. After seeing what my poor beloved Father went through and the effects of chemo he had endured and overcame, a fear inside me was so strong that I screamed ad became sick. Despite my fathers successful battle with cancer, it came back and he was taken from us. I will be undergoing Chemo now, the drug of choice will be Doxorubicin aka THE RED DEVIL. The side effects it seems will be horrendous! I don't know if my body can cope with this!
I'm so scared and was stupid enough to share my sickness with someone ; a man whom I was very interested of exploring a relationship with. A very foolish choice I made. The first thing he enquired about was 'how will this effect your job? Are you able to work yet? I don't know why but I was put off by his question. I didn't feel comfortable telling him that I permanently left work after being bullied an inch of my life, whereby an ex of mine helped a group of people break into my home and placed spy cameras above my bed and around my apartment. I subsequently ran home to my family and had a breakdown of which i was placed into a mental health institution. But i was quickly discharged as I was in shock and not mentaly ill. And now on top of that, I now have to face cancer again.
God help me! because I need something good to come of this, and loosing my hair is going to flaw me! I am so utterly tired and exhausted. I'm exploring the cold cap method in a bid to maintain my hair!
Wish me well please. I truly hope that there are compassionate human beings out there, cos I am in need of hearing or reading some beautiful inspiring words.
Thank you. T.I.T.N
