Hello Sam50,

                      l went through chemo/radio and it was not for the faint of heart.It can take you to the edge of destruction as it seeks to destroy the enemy within. l get the impression from your post that the treatment regime prescribed for you is one that seeks to take no prisoners and that force and speed are the order of the day.

l remenber well that the only comfort l could find as l dragged myself through each succesive day was that if l felt this obliterated,my unwelcome guest was also getting a  bloody good seeing to. What you describe is the same that many of us have gone through, its unusual for one to breeze through this sort of highly intensive treatment.

Mental attitude is your best friend, seeking the little positives and avoiding stress is a great ally. Finding something to do that will take your mind away from your distress ,even for a short while each day is good, it breaks the cycle of feeling awful, if only in short bursts at first..Don't stop doing something, change your approach on how you go about it.Accept that it will be different from the past and will take longer, but getting there eventually gives you such a boost and encouragement, and you can build from there..Work rest work was my ethos

You have little option but to stick with it, but you do have the option of manner of how you stick with it. as a recovered stage 4 survivor l know that it served me well on my path to recovery that l started 10 years ago.

It does get easier but at the beginning it felt like everyday had an extra few hours bolted on that l had to get through, but  as time moves on, suddenly there is not enough hours in the day to achieve everything l had planned--its called improvement and l hope you manage to find the same as l did.

My very best wishes for your improving future,

David