Morning all on this chat my names crouchy first of all excuse my grammar its shocking bu I guess like everyone on here it's the last thing I should be worried about I was diagnosed with prostate cancer mid December I'm only 56 but I guess cancer don't take prisoners NHS was fantastic I had the operation Tues 21st January I'm hopefully 1 off the lucky ones as its stage 2 I have 11mm lesion on left hand size its a bit confusing when I spoke to consultant he said it was slow but could become aggressive I had a list off questions I took to ask him unfortunately I didn't write that one the operation was shocking nothing to do with NHS whilst awaiting recovery obviously in recovery room I just started to here nurse calling my name to wake me when suddenly she shouts out my BP was in free falling I was aware everyone was there in seconds I felt them putting something down my throat then I blanked this happened a few times I finally got stable 7 hours later taken to ward my stay was ok they had just discharged everything was fine I sat down to get ready when out of the blue started feeling chest pains my wife rushed to the nurse within seconds crash team was there never felt pain like it BP was horrendous soaked in sweat I passed out with th pain in the end went on long time but they stabilised me by what is can gather those off the air that they pump into me got into my chest cavity they said its very rare has any one else experience this obviously I'm still pumped up with drugs and get very emotional talking about it but I need to to hopefully put it behind me I no its a very emotional time having cancer slightest things set me off sorry if I've bored you this is my first letter I just wished I'd kept a diary so many feelings so much going on right stopping now but who ever reads this thank you and hope all are well or foing the best they can x