Hello Maxinemum

I'm sorry to hear that you've been going through treatment for breast cancer since last summer. What you are currently feeling is a normal and understandable part of the process. 

Surgery for breast cancer can have an emotional impact on many women. In essence, you are losing a body part and one that for many women is an integral part of their physical identity. It's OK to feel sad or angry. It's OK to grieve for what has happened and the situation you find yourself in. 

I'm unsure from your post if you'll be having reconstruction or if you will be remaining flat. It's a very personal choice and whilst you're feeling very sad about things at the moment, it may be that after your surgery you find that you have different feelings towards your appearance. I'd really encourage you to talk with your breast care nurse and surgeon about how you're feeling. Hopefully, they will support you in finding the right way forward for you. They will also know what support services are available in your local area if it would be helpful for you to talk with a cancer support specialist. 

In the meantime, I'd suggest giving our team of nurses a call to talk with them about how you're feeling. I know they will be happy to listen and offer any advice, information and support they can. They're available Monday to Friday 9am to 5pm on 0808 800 4040. 

I know that this is a very difficult time Maxinemum. I hope that your surgery in a few weeks goes smoothly and that the team are able to give you some positive news and reassurance afterwards. 

Keep in touch and let us know how you're doing. We're here for you. 

Best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator