Hi Everyone - this is my 1st post. It's approaching 2am and today I had my 5th chemo session of 18. I'm so tired but my brain is too busy partying to let me sleep - the nurse says it's the steroids.
In September 2024 I was diagnosed with Grade 3 TNBC. An absolute bolt from the blue! Caught on mammogram.Surgery in October and Chemo began in November, once I had a TIVAD fitted. The last 4 months have been a whirl of appointments and information. I look in the mirror at this bald, tired woman with scars and swelling from the TiVad and surgery and still need to say, "Have I really got it? Are they sure?" Incredibly I feel like some kind of fraud.
Is there any one else who does this and feels this way? On the outside I keep smiling and positive but my mind is a constant babble of scary and depressing thoughts. I think maybe because I don't feel able to say any of this out loud to anyone. I would feel a lot less 'crazy' if I knew this was 'normal'
