Hello Marie.  I felt the need to reply to your post.  Back in 2019 I was diagnosed with breast cancer.  I am now terminal and probably don't have more than a few months to live.......if that.  My partner is absolutely heartbroken.  We met ten years ago and we are the love of each others lives.  Recently he said to me, "why you?  You are so good and kind.....why you?"  and I replied, "why not me?  what is so special about me that I shouldn't get cancer?"  

That has been my attitude right from the start.  One day when I went for my chemo treatment (which didn't work) I got out at the wrong floor and I walked in to the childrens cancer unit.......I saw all these little souls with their bald heads, many of them hooked up to drips, and yet they were laughing and chatting.  It was the most humbling thing I have ever seen in my life.  Their courage and resilience was awe inspiring.  Marie, have you any idea how LUCKY you are to have beaten this monstrous disease?  You have been given another chance at life........something that many cancer patients will never get.  Instead of feeling angry that you got cancer, why don't you simply appreciate how LUCKY you have been to have beaten it?  I am sorry if I don't have much empathy for you, but frankly, I feel a little bit disgusted by your attitude.