Hello there, I had Whipple surgery in June this year, and spent a total of nine weeks in hospital because of infections and complications. The surgery went well, but because of time elapsed, I was not able to be offered chemo at that time. I am now on three monthly scans, and will see the Oncologist in January for results of my first one. I am not frightened particularly about that, but I have had the most awful depression for the last three weeks. I actually lost a close friend suddenly and I cannot get out of this downward spiral of questioning what life is all about. I have just joined a Facebook page for Whipple survivors, and have realised that I have felt very isolated since surgery and finding adjusting to my new body difficult. I often feel as if someone else is inhabiting it. 

I have had depression before, but this feels different.

Thank you