Hi,

Not sure how to explain this but ill try my best.

Ive noticed since remission that my testicle have not been acting the same (my cancer wasn't testicular, it was a stupid random mass that decided to grow, putting pressure on my heart was what made me know something wasn't right).

It was a *** to get rid of and my final chemo attempt was BEAM then Stem Cell transplant, I was told I'd probably not be the same afterwards, sex drive and infertile, which wasn't a problem for me with me having a baby girl just 3 weeks before my diagnosis.

But since then I've often found my testicle would disappear up yonder and id pretty much have an empty sack.

I didn't pay much attention to it because eventually they'd come back down, recently I've noticed the shape and size have changed, mainly my left testicle has shrunk really small whereas my right has shrunk but not as bad as my left.

Odd thing is sometimes ive checked and I think my right testicle keeps changing size, one time it'll be really small then next time it'll feel a little bigger then back to been small again.

I felt a strange sharp like pain tonight in bed and had a feel and I have checked them before so I know this time I can feel something different.

Normally my testicle feel like they have fatty like tissue leading from both sides of the testicle, if you imagine your testicle dangling from a spider web on both sides.

One side I feel what feels like veins or tubes coming from my testicle and on the opposite side ive started to feel best way of describing it is like when you get fatty gristle in meat.

Where it feels soft on its outside but then feels really hard almost like bone into its middle and it is very painful to touch it, it feels as if ive just been kicked in the nuts and causes pain going upto my stomach.

It only hurts as far as I can say is when its touched, even if its very gently, it still hurts but if you press slightly harder then the pain rapidly goes from 0 to a 10.

Im finding it hard to find detailed images of what the testicle should look like and what comes off them, like an anatomy image or something.

But I checked again and again tonight and find it moves sides, it'll be either facing the left side towards my left leg or it'll be facing the right side towards my right testicle.

So im thinking it's probably not supposed to be turning inside the sack  or them going up yonder, but this hard gristle like thing i can feel on my testicle (opposite side to where I can feel the vein like tubes).

But this hurts more than if I were to squeeze my testicle itself just by touching it.

I know they say its best to see your GP, but they were utterly useless when it came to diagnosing my cancer and kept disregarding everything i were telling them and they didn't pay any attention until I started getting what I thought were bruises on my chest for no reason...... this turned out to my by blood veins not been able to circulate because of my mass putting pressure on my heart and the main veins that run down your spine.

Ive been in remission nearly 6 years and still fighting with them to find out why I feel worse off now then when I had cancer, I can barely walk (used to work as a carer doing 15hour shifts always on my feet), always in pain.

So I feel better off at least trying to do some research about testicles and understand them better, know what's what and what others may have had if they've had similar.

Prior to my diagnosis they'd send me home telling me I'm fine and to take diazipam, same still they just throw meds at me regardless if they're working or not.

Thanks