Hi, I can’t quite believe I’m even writing this, but it’s nice to know there is somewhere I can talk to others going through the same emotions. I am hoping it will help me stay calm and strong. I am happily married with a daughter 22 & a son 20. After an initial clear blood test, then finding a 7cm complex cyst on my left ovary, followed up by a clear uterus lining biopsy. I very unexpectedly found out last week that two more tumour spotter blood tests & an MRI scan were actually indicating that I do in fact have ovarian cancer stage 3. There are no words to explain the unbelievable shock this has been to me and my family. Uncontrollably shaking for days and days has been exhausting.I expect everyone on here agrees that the hardest thing to deal with is telling your loved one’s the news. This is done now and to be honest it has helped me to feel a little calmer knowing that my family has the blanket of support they are going to need around them. I was fast tracked to also have a CT scan yesterday which was on my chest.
I have just over another week to hear the results, I am completely petrified what they will be and what the consultants will say to me. There is a part of me that doesn’t want to know. But I have read on this sight that knowing where you are can help your mental health in the end.
The nights are the hardest aren’t they, I wake up remembering what is happening in my life and my mind spirals out of control. I am so lucky to have an amazing husband that does a brilliant job of calming me down. I have also joined the headspace app and was doing square breathing exercises which helped alot. Having calming music on through the night also helped.
