It's 1:10am and I'm up in less than 5 hours with my little kids but I'm shaking all over because of a symptom I just googled and searched on cancer sites and forums and every webmd type site imaginable and diagnosed myself with a rare and aggressive virtually symptomless cancer. I feel physically sick and it's impacting my ability to enjoy life. I frequently sit of an evening looking at pics and videos of my babies from that day and feel this horrific feeling of them watching these moments when I'm gone or who will comfort them when they wake at night and only want me etc etc it honestly is making me ill with worry and upset. I wish I could just go get an mri or something to tell me what I have/don't have and be done with it. I know for a fact I wouldn't feel like this if I didn't have kids, I would obviously care if I lived or died if I didn't have any but I wouldn't feel this terrified, I'm living as though I have a terminal diagnosis. Has anyone else experienced anything like this?