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Hi KteeMe, Yes i agree that you should see your GP but i also think that if you do not go out, Just like me, I suffer with agoraphobia, It is good to chat about something other than the cancer too. Take a step back and talk about things that make you happy (or at least used to) and get a feeling of some sort of normality back in your life if that is possible. I am 49 and back in April i was taken to hospital with heart failure and within 6 weeks i had a fall which caused a bleed on the brain which in turn caused a stroke for which i was kept as an inpatient until the end of august and i found out 4 weeks ago from my GP that back in May, the hospital found out i have cancer of the kidney but had failed to mention it to me. It measured 8cm back in may, i had a full body scan a few weeks ago but i am still waiting to hear the results etc. When it happened i hit rock bottom but i just used to have it all going on in my head all the time. Now i am focusing more on the things i enjoy and doing what i can for the people i care about and it is the happiest i have been in a long time. I find if you do good things and stop worrying so much then it can make what were those lonely days more enjoyable. I admit i find it hard to talk in depth to my wife about the serious stuff but that is because i want that normality at home with her but as long as there are places like this where you can lighten the load of *** going on in your head and just talk about anything then life feels that little bit better. but as the man said, medication woill help you by the sound of things too. It can't hurt just to have a chat with your GP..